He's very pressurised by this probation period lots of assessments and tests before it ends. Somemore anytime he can be asked to work frm 8-near 12am then reached home. Plus, we had some problems...cos im slightly taller than him...so he finds it hard to hug me. And he...cos i used to hangover with a grp of friends at my sec sch guy friend's hse. All of us are best friends. Btw dear, im very close to them. The grp including me got 2 girls. That girl is already attached, and her bf doesnt mind. If u dun like it, i wont go to any guys house to stayover. So i just hope u know...try to understand how i feel. Not that i did anything wrong. I told him abt this, and he just couldnt take it...its always on his mind. Like his gf, ...hmm...he canot imagine that to happen. The moment he sees me...he just cant get rid of the thoughts, that has been always been disturbing him.
He really sounded super stress....initially he wanted to break contacts with me le. Then after so long, he said he will leave his msn on. He will keep changing his nicks to hint me. I was given 2 dates to hear the result from him, whether he wants to meet me again. oNe is dec and the other one is after his probation. I chose after his probation in end march. Cos i dun want like later i patched back with him, he mixed me up with the stress again during probation. I dun wan this to happen. To be safer, end of march would be better. But i never know the outcome, hopefully he can think ba. Hmm...either he accepts me back or no more contacts le. Of cos we will definately be back as friends. Cannot hurry to a relationship cos its like half a yr of separation.
I think he is not able to take the stress...he felt like crying.It was really that bad. Haiz. I had to respect his decision, i understand this period he is going thru. My fault too for forcing him to give me the answer quickly and disturbing his slp.
I just hope during this period, he is able to get rid of the thoughts that i stayed over at my friend's place. I seriously do hope. I know u understand, its not my fault. And the height...i dunno wad to do either. Sign...feels so lost. As much as i love you, i hope u can at least revise some thoughts or so, before u wanna patch back. As for being friends, of cos im ok! Im afraid of u mixing stress again. Even though, after probation, you said u will have lesser stress...but its too early to tell. Hmm...i just hope u can think thoroughly before calling me back.
Im not gonna be blaming u. Since i have already waited so long, i thought i should just carry on waiting again. No harm. I know wad my readers will say. But i just wanna be that silly. Ya, im fine ppl!..no tears at all. Im so proud of myself this time. Im fine...just dun think too much that u feel bad abt hurting me boy.
Quickly passed ur probation k...goodluck and takecare. Hope to hear good news from u!
