TOld myself its alright...but yet failed and cried again. Felt to helpless and useless, im like the cause of making him so stressed. I really felt so bad, from his voice and i can tell....but no matter wad i said was useless...alot of wad ifs..was going thru my mind. Wad if i didnt force u the answer, would at be at least still better? Now im repeating the whole cycle again. If i told u im not hurt ar, i actually do. But not that bad still...I will respect ur decision since its wad u think its good for you. Just dun bother abt me, and focused on ya work. I rather see u be perfectly fine, cos its painful to see u like that. SO i had to accept this "punishment", which i is feel its most benefiting to cure ur stress and focus on work. I rather i suffer again, then u see u suffer.
Well, hey guys, if u see me k....dun ask me anything. I also wanna focus on my studies now. Im trying my best to heal myself alone... Like the other time, u guys ask me whether i got contact him, i had to say i seldom contact him le...in actual fact is totally no contacts at all. I kept it a secret...somehow i manage to keep mum abt this. SO i wanna go thru this again alone....
Then again....i promise and try to not hurt u again.... I wont be having another guys as bf, dun force me too. In my heart there is only u. But now currently im really tired too....with headaches...maybe not enuff slp. I know u feel its very cruel to me....it is. But like i say just dun think abt me can le.
Really thank mf for sharing with me. Thanks alot for being there for me. And jing, my nus gf for sharing with me too. She is the best...haha. Ytd she said, aiya break la. Ur bf cant is very confused. Why bother to wait for him since he doesnt have 5Cs. To me it doesnt matter whether got money car etc or not. Is ur heart that matters.
I will definately make use of this time to focus on my study too. And gif u the time to think thru this as well. If u like me right, I believe u will jus overcome that 2 barriers. Really...seriously love is like that. If u cant overcome right...cos all those are jus secondary..silly., then maybe ur love for me may not be there yet...somehow thats how i feel.
